Even at 24, you're still figuring things out. Like what's important to you. What makes you happy. What you realistically can change, and how to let go, but not give up. The importance of choosing the right words, and timing said words at the right moment.
A couple weeks ago there was a day where I totally lost my shit. I felt like no matter what I was trying to cram into my brain, it was just not sticking. I felt stressed out from the long hours, and I felt lonely. Which is completely silly in retrospect, but in that moment, life just absolutely sucked. I just stewed in that pot of negative feels, not even completely sure of what I was feeling. Ultimately, I think I wanted someone to jump into the pot with me and help get me out. I wanted to be happy with the smallest amount of personal effort. I wanted someone to do it - be happy - for me.
Some time has passed from that moment to now. Time where I realized that I need to stop doing that. Thinking that I can get those lows and expect someone to pull me out of them. Because that kind of mentality leads to a roller coaster of emotions. No one can be there for every bad moment of your life. I need to learn how to handle a obstacle by myself so that I don't just crumble when someone can't immediately come over and make it all better. As one of my best friends put it, my highs are really, really high and my lows and really, really damn low. I need a baseline.
But I can't expect someone to establish that baseline for me. That's completely, 100% up to me. I've got to be my own advocate for happiness. For someone who classifies herself as the biggest extrovert there is, this is a scary situation. But I'm kind of tired of riding the same roller coaster every week. Sometimes you just want to cruise the monorail. So here goes.
These started out as cookies, but I'm still figuring out how to properly incorporate honey into a cookie form and sadly those were just not there yet. But honey goes great with granola, so the cookies went and changed themselves into bars, with essentially the same mix ins but with a thousand times better result. I was going for a honey nut vibe so I ditched the chocolate on this one. Don't like peanuts? Absolutely need that choco taste? Take out the honey peanuts and add in some almonds. Throw in some of the chopped chocolate. Make these bars in whatever way will make you feel all the good feels.
Honey peanut yogurt raisin granola bars
2 1/2 cups old fashioned oats
1/2 cup honey roasted peanuts
1/4 cup sweetened shredded coconut
1/3 cup honey
1/4 cup unsalted butter
1/4 cup packed light brown sugar
1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/4 teaspoon kosher salt
1/2 cup dried cranberries
1/2 cup yogurt covered raisins
Preheat oven to 350 F. Toast the oats, nuts, and coconut on a small baking sheet for 10 minutes. Transfer to a large bowl.
While the oats are toasting, combine the honey, butter, vanilla, and salt in a small pot. Cook over a stove until the butter melts and the sugar dissolves.
Pour the butter mixture over the oats mixture. Mix with a spatula until well combined. Let the mixture cool for 5 minutes. After it's cooled down, add the cranberries and yogurt covered raisins.
Line a 8x8 square baking pan with parchment paper (I also added some cooking spray over the parchment paper to make sure it wouldn't stick). Pour the mixture into the pan and press down into the pan with your hands or a spatula really hard! The bars won't stay together if you don't press down. After you think it's pressed down enough, cover the pan with plastic wrap and place in the fridge for 2 hours.
After a couple hours, take your bars out of the fridge and cut into individual pieces. Enjoy however you want - with coffee, softened up in room temperature, or straight out of the fridge.